Gradual coming out at work.

Started coming out to work colleauges back on last saturday and the first person i told was shocked. I couldn’t see why as i was wearing some make-up (it wasn’t massively obvious though, except maybe the mascara).

The second person didn’t seem too botherd by it (or they didn’t realise or it didn’t sink in) and last night was the 3rd (and maybe a few others if they were paying attention).

Now, this third person has done the stereotypical thing that most cis people do, asked if my genitlas have been “chopped off”, i quickly set the record straight by saying that trans* people don’t like being asked any questions about there crotches then i made the point that he wouldn’t go around asking complete strangers about there crotches. But then he went on saying he’d happily whip his penis out in front of anybody, which i really didn’t need to hear.

Anyway during talking to him i finally have told someone at work (and again, any others that were paying attention) my new/future female name (this was just before the crotch discussion, though).

So, in general, so far, i havn’t had any real problems yet of anyone knowing im transitioning, which is good for me as i’m feeling more comfortable with these people, and thus making the work enjoyable to an extent.

Things are going well. 🙂

Update and coming out on the internet.

It’s been two months since the last post and alot has happend.

 

First of all, i have came out on the internet (well twitter, at this time), so i think i can now stop being annonymous. My (about to become) name is Serana, and i live in Norwich in the UK and now working (Yay! :D) at Mercy Nightclub in the city. My Twitter handle is @lilserana88

 

So i have continued going to trans meetings, havn’t bought any new make-up but have bought a new, cool black/red stripe hoody. The last time that i have been to the psychiatrists i had mom come with me and that might have helped alot as the psych has said for deffinate he will write a recommendation to Charing Cross. Still self medding hormones too right now.

So i’m now planning to get my deed poll signed and witness to make my new name official and to also save up for laser treatment. Things are going very well and im more happier then i have been for a long time. Things are starting to look up (and up, and up, etc). 😀

 

It’s been awhile / need to type stuff up to clear my head.

So, it’s been about 2 – 3 months since my last post, time for a quick catch up first.

 

Been to my first trans meeting and talked to other trans people. Meet a very intelligent and friendly person there.

Had a job interview yesterday for the first time in a couple of years.

Got my first lot of make-up. Foundation blusher, bronzer etc. and a mascara. Wore them a few times out and about and nobody appered to have noticed.

Continued to self med hormones, very little has changed. More on that later.

Orderd more clothes, basic stuff like t-shirts and jeans, currently waiting for new undies to arrive (should’ve arrived by today. It’s taking too long).

I think that’s about it. Now to clear my head.

 

Lately, i’ve been noticing little changes in my psychology and apperance, my face slightly appears to be changing but i’m not sure what exactly is changing.

Psychology i’m finding myself to be feeling more and more content and happy. But this isn’t something that’s most striking me, i seem to be getting more happier with shopping now, like before i typically just want to go and grab what i want and leave, but now i feel more prone to just browes, like my mother, even though i try not to.

This evening i had felt a bit wierd so i had to go and lie down and started thinking about all these things and started having different feelings all mashing into one, at one point i nearly started crying, although i wasn’t exactly sure why.

I’ve even been looking at my body recently and started epilating a little bit again, as i have a very hairy body (something that appears to run in the family), I’ve been thinking that waxing would probably be a better alternative as epilating doesn’t seem to work quite well, and takes a long while to finish as im going over areas multiple times just to remove a few untouched hairs.

Also been thinking that, even though my face *seemed* to change sllightly, i still look mostly male, doesn’t help the fact that i still got facial hair. But i have been thinking that i should try laser at advice by some people before possibly moving onto electrolysis. But i have read a few weeks ago that the NHS should now be funding for laser treatments for trans patients again, wether or not my GP and/or psychologists will actually agree to fund it is something i may find out soon.

 

Anyway, got some more make-up about to be delivered soon. Eyeshadow and eyeliner. Would love to try those soon, however i won’t be going out wearing them for some time. Anyway, i don’t know when i’ll write on this blog again, so until next time, see ya! 🙂

What an Ar**h*l*!

Today i wnet to see someone who was supposed to be a doctor expecting to get a blood test and what i got was a narrow minded idiot telling that i should do this i should do that. I was almost lost for words, i coulnd’t believe that this guy say’s that i should do more, that i should go to places as me instead of staying in all the time. I try’d explaining that this is who i am, that i don’t go out often because i don’t feel the need to. But he just keeps going on and on about me staying in and playing videogames all the time and not having a job, but like i was saying that it’s difficult to get a job or even an interview at this time, but typically, he just doesn’t seem to understand that everybody, including me, are having a very tough time looking for suitable work.

Anyway he then suggested that i should try and get my mom to meet him, im not sure that is a good idea, she would lay into him and maybe make him feel like shit, but then again, im surprised i didn’t do that myself.

Disappointed

So, today i went to this place that i had an appointment for electrolysis, had a consoltation first then got told they cant do it because of me self-medding hormones and that they require a letter from the GP saying that they can go ahead with the electrolysis.

 

And this was after half an hour of them trying to explain to me stuff i already know.

 

Disappointment is almost an understatement.